Looking back over the past year, it has been very challenging in all aspects of life. Adjusting to being single, having kids move in and out, helping where they can, running the pool business and tending to all the demands there, working at the tax office and trying to remain gracious and calm. Sometimes I don't think I'm going to make it as I run out of the desire to keep fighting. Then the miracle happens where the Lord picks me up and carries me. I need Him every hour because there's no way I could have managed this past year without divine help. I know Jon has been with me so many times, specifically helping me understand and do, and just feeling his love.
Over the past year, I purposely dismiss thoughts of those last few weeks with Jon. They are so difficult for me, wishing I could do so many things different or stop time or just go with him. But this week has been different. I think of him all day and find myself crying spontaneously at work, driving or cleaning pools. Will it ever get better? I take comfort that we will be again Together Forever!
The most important thing for me to deal and heal was to stay busy. That wasn't too hard with the pool business, usually from dawn until dusk. Add on the tax office for 4 hours in the middle of the day and keeping up with the house and office work, missing Jon's expertise, counsel and help.
I was talking to Mom on the phone looking out the window when I saw this Bobcat in the backyard. By the time I got the camera, he was nearly over the fence but I got a few good shots. The last time we saw a Bobcat in the back yard was about 7 years ago when Jon
and I were sitting at the breakfast table. But this time, ha ha, I got his picture!Also pictures of a few other projects, repainting the frig and repairing the power vac.
